I can’t connect with people on any real level, I don’t enjoy any of the things I used to, all I do is isolate myself. I don’t care enough about the people I’m supposed to, I don’t particularly like myself, I don’t know what love is or if I’m ever supposed to find it, I don’t know if I’m capable of being happy with life or myself or anything in it. I don’t know what I want to do with my life, I don’t feel like I would be happy on my current career path, or any other career path for that matter. How do I pursue happiness if I don’t know what makes me happy or what I love? Am I destined to be a fuck up like everyone else in my family? What am I supposed to do with my life?
How am I supposed to connect to people? I don’t know how to relate to anyone but sociopaths and burnouts. What worth am I to society if I can’t handle connecting to any if the people in it?
I feel alone and trapped inside my head, and I don’t know if its worth it to try and break out.
I don’t trust people enough. I don’t know how to rely on others enough to express to them how I feel, to let someone into my life. I feel like everyone I try to get close to gets brought down, burdened and hurt.